Petrovnia McIntosh as Mahari in Triggered. Broom Street Theater. 2013. Photo by Callen Harty.
In high school I acted in two plays, but don’t really recall the openings. I vaguely recall anything about the plays, except that I had a very small role in Arsenic and Old Lace and played Tweedledum opposite my good friend Mark in Alice in Wonderland and we had a hoot with it.
Thirty years ago, in the late spring of 1983, a friend tricked me into taking a role in a scene from a play (Clifford Odets’ Golden Boy) for a director’s project at UW-Madison. It changed my life. I immediately wanted to audition and do it again. I was a natural actor and fell in love with it immediately. Since then I have had so many opening nights and I have been a part of so many productions that I can’t even begin to count them. As an actor I’ve been in dozens of productions (60? 70? 80?) and hundreds upon hundreds of performances. My debut as an adult actor in a full-length play in a theater was in Bryn Magnus’ Might at Broom Street Theater in Madison, Wisconsin. It was July 8, 1983 and I remember peeking from behind the curtains as the audience continued to pour into the building. We sold out opening night and then never again after that.
It was twenty years ago that I debuted as a writer with my play first play, Dream Quest. It was hell getting to the opening night and I was terrified, but it went well. Tonight’s opening of Triggered marks the 23rd full-length play I’ve written, plus one adaptation, a one-act, and dozens of monologues as part of a cemetery tour called Talking Spirits which I wrote for the first six years. I’ve directed many other plays as well, so I really don’t know how many openings I’ve had.
The most memorable opening night had to be a play in which I acted almost five years ago–Dancing with my Other, by Kathie Rasmussen. During my next-to-last scene I had a heart attack on stage–in the middle of the stage in the middle of a scene in the middle of an opening night performance. How much more dramatic could I have made it? Thinking I had pulled a muscle (and thinking the show must go on) I exited after the scene, changed costumes, and went out even though I was feeling unwell and did my last scene before going back stage to lie down and break into a cold sweat. The play ended with a real ambulance pulling up to the theater and carting me away with a major heart attack–100% blockage of my left coronary. That one made all the newspapers–not for my acting, but my unusual exit. I was upset that I couldn’t go back the next night to do it again as I had only missed one rehearsal in my entire theatrical career and had never missed a performance. Several other opening nights were memorable, but none so much as that.
The thing that amazes me is that it is still magic–absolute, beautiful, and exhilarating magic. On opening nights I still feel like a little boy at Christmas or on a birthday, but instead of unwrapping a gift it is a story unfolding before my eyes. It is a gift I get to give to others and I get to watch how they react. For myself, no matter how many times I’ve seen the play in rehearsal it reveals itself to me anew each night of performance. Thirty years later I still get butterflies in my stomach when I arrive at the theater on opening night. Thirty years later the rehearsal process is still a daily revelation. Thirty years later it is still magical to watch how a play develops from thoughts to words on paper to actors speaking the lines and later inhabiting the characters. It is still magical to see the lights and hear the sound being added, to witness sets, props, and costumes providing further layers, to watch people come through the door and pay to watch the thing that I am so passionate about, to watch them come along for the journey through an imaginary (yet somehow real) world.
Soon tonight’s opening will be past. The run of the play will be done. It will become another in a long line of memories in more than thirty years of doing this. And before that even happens the beginnings of the next play will already be germinating in my mind.
