Tag Archives: alcohol

#SurvivorLoveLetter

To the boy that is me, You and me, we are not so different, even with so many intervening years separating us. We are fighters, stubborn, curious, seekers of justice, too trusting sometimes, lovers of nature, smart, naïve, innocent. We … Continue reading

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#WhyIDidntReport

Why I didn’t report? Blame. I did report. As a little boy I told my mother and her response was, “You shouldn’t let him do that to you.” She didn’t know any better and neither did I. So when it … Continue reading

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On Suicide

  Trigger warning for suicide/suicidal ideation. When I was living in my dorm in college one of the men at the other end of the long hall on our floor killed himself. In retrospect it was not a sudden thing. … Continue reading

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The Gift

April 18, 1989. A gay bar in Denver, the Triangle. A can of beer in hand, cigarette in the other. I was there alone, so I wasn’t there to be with friends, I wasn’t there looking for someone for the … Continue reading

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Full Circle

Trigger Warning: This post is about child sex abuse and also suicide. Please take care of yourself first and foremost. Since coming out publicly as a survivor of child sex abuse about seven years ago I have written articles, blog … Continue reading

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Silver Sobriety

25 years. Today marks 25 years since my last drink. There was a time when 25 hours without a drink was pretty much impossible for me. Now it has been 25 years. On past anniversaries I have recounted the bad … Continue reading

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Through the Darkness Lightly

After 24 years of sobriety my days of heavy drinking seem like a distant blur and somewhat unreal in certain ways. I spent about eleven years of my life in a pretty much constant drunken haze, self-medicating, hiding, creating masks. … Continue reading

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