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On Dying and Living
Let’s start with the basics. You need death to come into your life to know about mortality. Once you accept your own mortality, then you understand you are dying. And with the knowledge of your own movement toward your final … Continue reading
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More than Nine Lives
In my life, I feel like I have lived more than the nine lives of a cat. When I was two years old, I almost died when I contracted scarlet fever, meningitis, and mumps in a two week span. My … Continue reading
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Paths to Healing Keynote Speech
At this year’s Paths to Healing conference on male survivors of child sex assault I was the keynote speaker. This is the text of the speech I delivered today. Good morning. I’d like to start by thanking Chris Taylor, who … Continue reading
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Courage
I’d like to thank WCASA and all of the wonderful employees there for presenting me with this award. I am deeply honored to be named your Courage Award recipient for 2016. I would also like to thank Angie Rehling of OutReach who nominated … Continue reading
Survivor Story
Trigger Warning: Parts of this blog post may be triggering. Please take care of yourself and seek out help if you can. A couple months ago I was invited to do a presentation at Wisconsin Coalition Against Sexual Assault’s “Sexual … Continue reading
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Through the Darkness Lightly
After 24 years of sobriety my days of heavy drinking seem like a distant blur and somewhat unreal in certain ways. I spent about eleven years of my life in a pretty much constant drunken haze, self-medicating, hiding, creating masks. … Continue reading
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Tagged addictive personality, alcohol, alcoholism, child sex abuse, Child Victims Act, depression, drugs, drunk, empathy, faith, forgiveness, innocence, Jesus, lessons, male survivors, masks, molestation, paranoia, rape, self-medication, self-revelation, sexual abuse, sobriety, suicide, survival, thankfulness
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Not Rock Bottom
The first time I ever got drunk was, appropriately enough, on St. Patrick’s Day, 1978. It was also the day I turned in the paperwork to quit college. Prior to that time I was a teetotaler. I knew family history and … Continue reading
A Single Bluebird 