Tag Archives: memories

On Dying and Living

Posted on May 29, 2023 by Callen Harty

Let’s start with the basics. You need death to come into your life to know about mortality. Once you accept your own mortality, then you understand you are dying. And with the knowledge of your own movement toward your final … Continue reading →

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The Agony of Aging

Posted on January 9, 2020 by Callen Harty

While I don’t really feel all that old, I am keenly aware that I am aging. I could still live for several more decades, but maybe not. I’m in my 60s now and have had several heart issues. … Continue reading →

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Mortality

Posted on September 16, 2019 by Callen Harty

Lately, even before this last weekend, mortality has been on my mind. My partner, Brian, has been talking about the fact that we’re getting older and how he worries about me because of already surviving a heart attack a decade … Continue reading →

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Two years after

Posted on June 18, 2019 by Callen Harty

Two years after Before you were gone you were gone. Your eyes, already looking toward heaven, could not look at me and know who I was, though love still glimmered in those deep brown orbs. Before you passed your past … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged abstractions, ancestors, being, breath, children, dead, essence, Heaven, images, joy, life, love, memories, memory, mysteries, passed, past, secrets, wonder | Leave a comment

Pictures of a Lost Youth

Posted on February 22, 2019 by Callen Harty

Trigger warning: This post talks about child sex abuse. Please take care of yourself. My sister has been looking through old photos that my mother had and posting some online for those who are pictured in them. Recently she posted … Continue reading →

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A Haircut

Posted on November 1, 2017 by Callen Harty

Tonight I got my hair cut and it triggered a rush of memories and good feelings. Perhaps it had never occurred to me before that triggers can be good as well as bad. The sound of the clippers and the … Continue reading →

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Without Memories

Posted on May 9, 2017 by Callen Harty

There was one recurring dream that I had when I was a child. I would be standing just outside the side door of our house where there were a number of steps leading up the hill to the door. Looking down … Continue reading →

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Full Circle

Posted on April 16, 2017 by Callen Harty

Trigger Warning: This post is about child sex abuse and also suicide. Please take care of yourself first and foremost. Since coming out publicly as a survivor of child sex abuse about seven years ago I have written articles, blog … Continue reading →

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Christmas Reflection

Posted on December 9, 2016 by Callen Harty

Last night as I was driving home under the stars on tops of evergreen trees and past lights behind frosty windows I thought of my mother and I cried. She is old now, bedridden and infirm, somehow staying alive when … Continue reading →

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Reflections on My Mother

Posted on September 26, 2013 by Callen Harty

I can’t stop thinking about my mother this week. For months now it has seemed that she is at the end of her life, but she has kept waking up to each new day, seemingly strong and determined despite her … Continue reading →

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On Mother’s Day

Posted on May 12, 2013 by Callen Harty

I wish I were a better son. I wish I had the courage to face my mother’s dwindling years without the fear of losing her. I wish I had the compassion to make her remaining years about her and not … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged fear, love, memories, Mom, Mother's Day, son | 2 Comments