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On Suicide Prevention Day

Posted on September 10, 2019 by Callen Harty

Trigger Warning: This post talks about suicide/ideation, child sex abuse, and depression. Please take care of yourself. If there is one thing in my life that I failed at that I’m happy about it’s suicide. When I was younger I … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged attempts, better, child sex abuse, depression, drug overdoes, drunk, heart, humor, Invisible Boy, love, meaningful life, pain, paranoia, peace, pills, razor blade, self-doubt, suicide, Suicide Awareness Day, survive, unloved, unwanted | Leave a comment

30 Years

Posted on April 16, 2019 by Callen Harty

This week (April 18) marks 30 years since my last drink. Thirty years ago, late at night (or early in the morning) I had an epiphany in a bar in Denver and realized I had to quit drinking or I … Continue reading →

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Pictures of a Lost Youth

Posted on February 22, 2019 by Callen Harty

Trigger warning: This post talks about child sex abuse. Please take care of yourself. My sister has been looking through old photos that my mother had and posting some online for those who are pictured in them. Recently she posted … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged aftereffects, Anne Frank, boy, child sex abuse, childhood, emotions, fear, goodness, guilt, happy, high school graduation, hopeful, idealistic, lost innocence, memories, pain, photo, pictures, positive, rape, sadness, sexual abuse, shame, smile, survivors, teen years, trigger warning, vulnerable | Leave a comment

#WhyIDidntReport

Posted on September 26, 2018 by Callen Harty

Why I didn’t report? Blame. I did report. As a little boy I told my mother and her response was, “You shouldn’t let him do that to you.” She didn’t know any better and neither did I. So when it … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged #WhyIDidntReport, alcohol, blame, burden, burden of proof, childhood sex abuse, corroboration, courage, drugs, fear, horror, justice system, love, memoires, naming, pain, physical evidence, reality, shame, statute of limitations, survivors, threatened, time, truth | 2 Comments

On Suicide

Posted on June 9, 2018 by Callen Harty

Trigger warning for suicide/suicidal ideation. When I was living in my dorm in college one of the men at the other end of the long hall on our floor killed himself. In retrospect it was not a sudden thing. … Continue reading →

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The Gift

Posted on April 18, 2018 by Callen Harty

April 18, 1989. A gay bar in Denver, the Triangle. A can of beer in hand, cigarette in the other. I was there alone, so I wasn’t there to be with friends, I wasn’t there looking for someone for the … Continue reading →

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A Gift

Posted on March 15, 2015 by Callen Harty

Over the last several years I have spoken to a lot of groups about child sex abuse. Typically I relate my own survivor story and then open it up to questions and answers. I am not clinically trained or a … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged abuser, alcohol & drug abuse, apology, child sex abuse, compassion, forgiveness, healing journey, human connection, pain, promiscuity, self-care, self-hatred, shame, suicide, survivor, trigger warning | 1 Comment

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